Emotions are so much a part of humans. Some of us wish we could carry on without them, and yet some of us wish we had a little more than what we have. I used to think that I was really bad when it came to expressing emotions. Probably I still am, but that does not mean I don't feel them. I could still feel something and hide them, couldn't I? You bet, I'm pretty good that that. Very few privileged people have seen some of my emotions. So here's taking a look at some of my emotions and occasions when I feel them.
It makes me happy when...
So many things makes me happy. I can think of my favorite food and feel happy with the hope that I would get to eat it sometime soon. Right now I can think about graduating, and that makes me happy. I feel happy when I get an unexpected call or scrap from someone I love. I even feel happy when anyone calls me or leaves me a message. It just means someone has probably spent maybe a minute to think about me in their busy day. Most of all, I feel happy when someone listens to me, because usually its me who is the listener.
It makes me jump for joy when...
Might be crazy, but I jump for joy when I hear about some development that has happened in the railways, especially if its at some place I am familiar with. A single line has been converted to double line, and it excites me. An un electrified route becomes electrified, it excites me. Yeah, call me crazy. I recently jumped for joy when I heard that Ozzy would release his new album next month. Like its going to make my life any easier, but I still jump.
It makes me feel hurt when...
Nothing can hurt me more than being lied to. You can steal from me, I may get over it. You could beat me up, the wounds are only physical. Lying leaves such a deep scar in me and it creates this real heavy feeling in my heart. Maybe I feel like I have been taken for a fool, or maybe I feel like I was not respected. Whatever it is, please don't ever ever lie to me, no matter how big/small the issue.
It makes me feel sad when...
If I ever come across someone who has not been able to do something or achieve something because of the lack of money, that makes me really sad. Maybe its my strong desire to help, versus my ability to. Very few poor people become rich. The rich become richer and the poor remain where they are. Its not fair. There have been many things I have not got or not been able to do because I do not have the money. Strangely I would feel more sadder for my friend who had to miss a movie at the theater, than for a homeless person. Weird. It also makes me sad to hear about children dying, for what ever reasons. Its just not their time yet. Someone got it all wrong.
It makes me smile when...
Show me children or even pictures of children and there is no way I can hide my smile. Every kid is cute, in their own right and maybe its the innocence about them that makes me smile. Show me a clip or shot of a father playing with his kid, and that makes me smile, maybe because I am a man. I wonder if I subconsciously think what it would be like to go back and become like them, with no worries and not a care for anything in this world. Everything taken care of for them. What a way to live, and you got to smile for that.
It makes me cry when...
Men cry. Accept it, and if any of you men deny that, you are not being honest. We probably see tears as a sign of weakness. I can cry when I'm lied to. I can cry if I have had a fight or misunderstanding with my partner or even a friend. Movies make me cry, believe it or not. I cry the most because of a movie. I'm not really particular about a movie with a happy ending and I kind of like a sad ending. An excuse to let the tears flow in the safety of my room.
It makes me angry when...
Most of the anger is at myself. I get angry the most when I look back at a situation where I did not do what I was supposed to do. I get really angry with myself and wonder why I just did not stand up and do what I had to. Most of the times its too late to do it and I just hate myself for that.
It makes me pissed of when...
I don't know how different this is from being angry, but I guess its one notch down. I get pissed of when someone dirties my kitchen. I get pissed when someone sings a song without proper timing. I get pissed when someone says they will do something and they don't. Even if it does not really affect me. It makes me pissed of when someone lets someone else take them for a ride and lets them walk all over. I could go on about the things that piss me off.
It makes me feel abandoned when...
I need human contact. I need to meet people and be with someone even if I rarely speak. It drives me nuts to sit alone at home. Guess that's why I find solace with the computer screen because sometimes that's the best I can find now. If I don't feel a touch from someone, I sometimes forget that I'm real.
Enough of emotions for now. I feel drained. LOL
It makes me happy when...
So many things makes me happy. I can think of my favorite food and feel happy with the hope that I would get to eat it sometime soon. Right now I can think about graduating, and that makes me happy. I feel happy when I get an unexpected call or scrap from someone I love. I even feel happy when anyone calls me or leaves me a message. It just means someone has probably spent maybe a minute to think about me in their busy day. Most of all, I feel happy when someone listens to me, because usually its me who is the listener.
It makes me jump for joy when...
Might be crazy, but I jump for joy when I hear about some development that has happened in the railways, especially if its at some place I am familiar with. A single line has been converted to double line, and it excites me. An un electrified route becomes electrified, it excites me. Yeah, call me crazy. I recently jumped for joy when I heard that Ozzy would release his new album next month. Like its going to make my life any easier, but I still jump.
It makes me feel hurt when...
Nothing can hurt me more than being lied to. You can steal from me, I may get over it. You could beat me up, the wounds are only physical. Lying leaves such a deep scar in me and it creates this real heavy feeling in my heart. Maybe I feel like I have been taken for a fool, or maybe I feel like I was not respected. Whatever it is, please don't ever ever lie to me, no matter how big/small the issue.
It makes me feel sad when...
If I ever come across someone who has not been able to do something or achieve something because of the lack of money, that makes me really sad. Maybe its my strong desire to help, versus my ability to. Very few poor people become rich. The rich become richer and the poor remain where they are. Its not fair. There have been many things I have not got or not been able to do because I do not have the money. Strangely I would feel more sadder for my friend who had to miss a movie at the theater, than for a homeless person. Weird. It also makes me sad to hear about children dying, for what ever reasons. Its just not their time yet. Someone got it all wrong.
It makes me smile when...
Show me children or even pictures of children and there is no way I can hide my smile. Every kid is cute, in their own right and maybe its the innocence about them that makes me smile. Show me a clip or shot of a father playing with his kid, and that makes me smile, maybe because I am a man. I wonder if I subconsciously think what it would be like to go back and become like them, with no worries and not a care for anything in this world. Everything taken care of for them. What a way to live, and you got to smile for that.
It makes me cry when...
Men cry. Accept it, and if any of you men deny that, you are not being honest. We probably see tears as a sign of weakness. I can cry when I'm lied to. I can cry if I have had a fight or misunderstanding with my partner or even a friend. Movies make me cry, believe it or not. I cry the most because of a movie. I'm not really particular about a movie with a happy ending and I kind of like a sad ending. An excuse to let the tears flow in the safety of my room.
It makes me angry when...
Most of the anger is at myself. I get angry the most when I look back at a situation where I did not do what I was supposed to do. I get really angry with myself and wonder why I just did not stand up and do what I had to. Most of the times its too late to do it and I just hate myself for that.
It makes me pissed of when...
I don't know how different this is from being angry, but I guess its one notch down. I get pissed of when someone dirties my kitchen. I get pissed when someone sings a song without proper timing. I get pissed when someone says they will do something and they don't. Even if it does not really affect me. It makes me pissed of when someone lets someone else take them for a ride and lets them walk all over. I could go on about the things that piss me off.
It makes me feel abandoned when...
I need human contact. I need to meet people and be with someone even if I rarely speak. It drives me nuts to sit alone at home. Guess that's why I find solace with the computer screen because sometimes that's the best I can find now. If I don't feel a touch from someone, I sometimes forget that I'm real.
Enough of emotions for now. I feel drained. LOL
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