There have been stages in my life when I used to be so contend if I was on my own. I could stay alone, cook and eat alone and do pretty much a lot of stuff on my own. I enjoyed it, though the craving for company existed every now and then. The phase of my life when I was unmarried gave me the freedom to be alone when ever I wanted to. Every once a week or so I had the need for company and would head out to a friends place for a day or two. This was one luxury I knew I was going to miss once I got married.
Having spent a lot of time alone, and now suddenly spending all your time with someone new takes some getting used to. I had the whole day and whole house to myself and now I have to share it with someone. Thankfully for me the transition happened smoothly. For most of the time I really did not mind the company and pretty soon I began to enjoy it and even sooner it became a part of my routine. However, every now and then I used to crave for those days when I was alone. When I could sit in front of the TV until it was almost daybreak and then finally crash on the couch. I used to miss waking up past noon, without much care and working on my own sweet schedule. I got a chance to relive those old glory lazy days when my wife had to go out of town for three weeks.
Apart from that fact that I missed her, I enjoyed the first few days of being alone. I enjoyed crashing on the couch with the TV on and waking up around noon. I enjoyed going out at nights and not even returning home the same night. Yes, it was the joys of bachelorhood all over again for a few days. Maybe four of five days into this, I began to get bored. The TV or the long sleeps did not satisfy me anymore and at times, even the company of friends did not satisfy me fully. Oh yes, I had to finally accept that I had kind of got accustomed to being with someone and sharing my life with someone that when she was gone, it kind of sucked. I still do the things I want to and go when and where I want to, but it's just not complete somehow. Funny how life can make you feel one particular way one day and few months later you feel the opposite.
And so I decided that there's going to be no more long trips away for my wife, unless absolutely needed. At least, I don't wish for it anymore. I really could do with being alone for a day or two, but at this point I don't think I need more than that. So here I am right now, counting the days for her to come back.
Having spent a lot of time alone, and now suddenly spending all your time with someone new takes some getting used to. I had the whole day and whole house to myself and now I have to share it with someone. Thankfully for me the transition happened smoothly. For most of the time I really did not mind the company and pretty soon I began to enjoy it and even sooner it became a part of my routine. However, every now and then I used to crave for those days when I was alone. When I could sit in front of the TV until it was almost daybreak and then finally crash on the couch. I used to miss waking up past noon, without much care and working on my own sweet schedule. I got a chance to relive those old glory lazy days when my wife had to go out of town for three weeks.
Apart from that fact that I missed her, I enjoyed the first few days of being alone. I enjoyed crashing on the couch with the TV on and waking up around noon. I enjoyed going out at nights and not even returning home the same night. Yes, it was the joys of bachelorhood all over again for a few days. Maybe four of five days into this, I began to get bored. The TV or the long sleeps did not satisfy me anymore and at times, even the company of friends did not satisfy me fully. Oh yes, I had to finally accept that I had kind of got accustomed to being with someone and sharing my life with someone that when she was gone, it kind of sucked. I still do the things I want to and go when and where I want to, but it's just not complete somehow. Funny how life can make you feel one particular way one day and few months later you feel the opposite.
And so I decided that there's going to be no more long trips away for my wife, unless absolutely needed. At least, I don't wish for it anymore. I really could do with being alone for a day or two, but at this point I don't think I need more than that. So here I am right now, counting the days for her to come back.
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